I wear this crown of thorns
upon my liar's chair
full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Monday, October 29, 2007 @ 10:51 PM
helo.

Ok, things have been going well now. I'm still with Mel. And we're going strong. I have many projects. Many books to read up on. Too lazy to do anything yet.


Bye
Thursday, October 18, 2007 @ 2:25 PM
yes.

Hmmm...

So, I think my relationship's almost over. She just admitted that there has been no feelings whatsoever since the last few months. She's not over her ex. And, I've been told that I'm boring.

So.....

Up to me I think. I still have feelings for her.

She wants me to play the chasing game where I chase for her again. I'm just tired now.

Yada yada this, yada yada that and I just happen to have no effect with my actions towards her I think.

I mean if she doesn't love me then I have to get it back don't I? But I feel that I'm the one that's been making all the effort. I feel that it's me that's been doing what I can.

So yea, an inside into my tumultuous life..
Sunday, October 14, 2007 @ 7:04 AM
yay.

So the first day of raya went very smoothly.

But I was extra happy yesterday. Why?

KAK MIRFA CAME BACK FROM THE USA TO CELEBRATE RAYA WITH US FOR A WEEK!

It's been too long since I've seen her. The last memory I have of her was going to Genting with her, her sister, her younger brother and her mom. I was 4 or 5 years old at that time I think. I was a cute baby (not as if I'm still not cute now) and people would bring me out constantly. So yea, she saw me yesteray and I saw her and we were both shocked. I'm gonna be 18 and she had a baby a few months back. She and I do have 1 thing in common though. We're about the same height and we're both the same size!

She grew bigger over the last 13 years! So we joked about how we were the same size now. I didn't take a picture with her cause my handphone's camera really sucks. It's the old Le'Amour series so the camera is only 0.3 I think. And we didn't have any camera on us. But, she's coming on Monday!

So yea, Hari Raya is really about meeting family. Really nice to meet Kak Mirfa once again..


To the rest of the guys,

PS: How your collection ah?
Friday, October 12, 2007 @ 9:10 PM
dsg.

Tomorrow is Hari Raya!

Lots of feasting and collecting of money tomorrow. =)

So I'm currently in a dilemma. I bought 3 baju kurung this year, White, Maroon and Purple. I wanted to experiment with different colours this year.

I should wear white to the mosque first right? After all I need to look pure and clean. Then what colour should I wear when I go visiting? Ok, my 2 retarded younger sisters are gonna wear red so I don't think I'm going to wear Maroon. Purple then, the colour of celebration.

But what colour jeans to go with my purple?

Blue? Black?

I CAN'T CHOOSE!

To all my Muslim friends,

Selamat Hari Raya kepada semua. Minta maaf lah dengan perbuatan ataupun perkataan yang telah saya kata yang membuat kamu marah ke per. Selamat Hari Raya sekali lagi. Maaf Zahir dan Batin.

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Thursday, October 11, 2007 @ 1:03 PM
hoo.

So yea, I'm not sure when things will be better. I want things to be better but I can't always get what I want right?

So yea, I'm fine.

Anyway, going to relax tonight by just walking around. If anyone wants to meet up and talk or something just SMS me.

I don't really expect anyone anyways..
Wednesday, October 10, 2007 @ 5:33 PM
doom.

It isn't me isn't it?

I don't know but I just have this feeling about it.

This is probably one of those things that I'm just going to keep to myself.

So yea, I'm fine.

Don't worry.
Monday, October 8, 2007 @ 11:55 PM
pls.

I know we've been fighting alot. Alot.

Let's put it all behind us. I don't want us to break apart because of our fights. We may have our disagreements but feelings don't change. Remember the plan we have for this Hari Raya for me to intro you to my parents? I do try my best for you. I really do.


And SIM Toastmasters suck big time! They don't have spunk, energy or ideas. It was a lifeless meeting till Anil farted.

ps: I miss you girl. I'm trying to be more romantic too.


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@ 11:16 AM
You said I said.

You told me to change so I did. You were happy with it but I still reverted to my old ways at times.


I told you to change and you did. You dressed better and looked better.


I only wished you had changed more. You're still as willful as ever. You're still not gentle. You told me that you're more rough these days.


Truth is, I love you. You can't imagine how much I do. I'm no romantic and I don't have the cliched gestures that people usually do for their girlfriends. Instead, I do them in my own unorthodox way. I know you wanted a jacket, but I told you I was going to get you socks instead. I shall not say what I have planned so as not to spoil the surprise I have for you.


My parents don't know about us and neither do yours. I just feel that we should please them in our own silent way. Please understand.


And since you don't believe me... Here goes.


Malay Version


Kamu telah beberapa kali memohon saya untuk bertukar dan saya mencuba. Kamu begitu gembira dengan pertukaran saya tetapi, kadangkala saya akan berlaku seperti dahulu.


Saya juga telah memohon kamu untuk bertukar dan kamu mencuba. Kelihatan kamu lebih berseri sekarang dan kamu sudah pandai berpakaian.


Saya hanya harap yang kamu telah bertukar lagi. Kamu mesti kepala batu. Kamu juga tidak lembut tetapi lebih ganas sekarang.


Saya betul-betul cinta kepada kamu. Cintaku tidak boleh dikira. Saya tahu bahawa saya bukan seorang yang sikap romantik dan tidak membuat perkara-perkara pasangan lain akan selalu berlaku.


Saya tahu bahawa kamu tidak mempercayai kepada lelaki tetapi saya hendak memberitahu kamu bahawa saya tidak seperti kacang yang lupakan kulit. Perbuatan kamu untuk saya akan selalu diingati oleh saya.


Saya mencintai kamu, Melati Amat Yunos.