I wear this crown of thorns
upon my liar's chair
full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Monday, March 17, 2008 @ 11:59 PM
adfhfdh.

Last blog post.

Not gonna blog at the moment anymore. Going through some changes.

If you're still reading this blog, go read someone else's till I tag you saying that I've returned.

Oh ya, to avoid any distress, I have decided not to blog any other personal life stories on this blog.

They'll all go to my future LJ account. Which I will create...


Some day soon.


Bye
Tuesday, March 11, 2008 @ 10:31 AM
asdfgten.

It seems that everyone is getting famous through the Internet these days.

Sean Kingston became famous for his singing on MySpace.

The Jonas Brother became famous for their video on YouTube.

Why can't I be the same?

SO, if there is any editor out there from Singapore that's looking for a columnist of random ideas and thoughts, please tag me!

I wanna be famous too.



Be patient for Thursday..
Tuesday, March 4, 2008 @ 7:20 AM
dsgdsg.

When you SMSed me saying that you couldn't think positive of me anymore and that you didn;t have hopes on me, I made up my mind to break then to be fair to you.

Because hell, I don't know when I'm going to be free. I still have some restrictions. And I know you can't wait for me.

So, to be fair, let's just break. I don't wanna be a disappointment in your eyes anymore. I don't want to get insulted anymore. And I'd rather you have the freedom to do what you want without following my time.

I didn't want to hold you back anymore. Go have your fun. I'm not going to be free for the next long months anyway.

I can't give you the time you want.

And the fact that things got out of hand yesterday made it more definite for me to do this.

Here's some things about you I don't think you know.

1) Your expectations are way too high for someone who's as busy as me
2) Don't insult me
3) Don't be unresonable
4) Have lots of patience

I'm an easy guy to be with even with the parent restricts and all. You can ask Shiffa. Those were the things we had that made us happy, made ME happy.

I just want you to be happy too ok...

I really didn't want to break...I still love you...but I can't..

I just can't...

I just want to be happy...
Monday, March 3, 2008 @ 5:55 PM
asdsdg.

You insult everything I am...

What's wrong with me liking Toastmasters? Its an outlet where I can talk about things because you usually don't get what I'm saying sometimes and it makes me frustrated.

And I want to go for the Pre-U Seminar. I can't just skip for the fun of it even if it's for you. The Pre-U Seminar comes once a year and you're chosen once. I got my chance but you belittle it.

You said, "So?" You didn't understand the honour of it all. I didn't scream and beg for a place. I was nominated and chosen.

The meetings is a must to attend so that I don't miss out on what's going on. If the meetings extend, it's not my damned fault because I'm not in-charge.

You blame me for things I can't control. You're unreasonble, impatient, and believe it or not, you're controlling me. You want this and that but I can't give it to you right now and you throw a tantrum when I can't.

You say I don't know commitment, but if I didn't know commitment, why would I attend all the meetings each time? It's ironic your statement doubting my commitment. You want me to show commitment, there I am.

I don't know if I can be with you anymore.
Saturday, March 1, 2008 @ 7:27 AM
sdgadh.

I hate this.

What is it with girls that they believe that their boyfriends must be romantic 24/7. All the time, they expect their guy to be romantic. If the guy isn't, he gets bombarded with whines and tempers from her.

So what the hell is up with this?

Being romantic is like having a pool of emotions in one's body. If you expect the guy to keep being romantic all the time, 1 day, that pool is going to run out faster before it can be replenished.

Furthermore, different guys have different ways to show their "romantic-ness". For some people it's by words. For others, it's the things they present to the girl. But to the girl, this isn't interpreted as romantic. Buying gifts is a true romantic sign if you think about it especially if he suddenly shows up and gives it to you for example IF he suddenly shows up and gives you a sunflower and you blush and giggle and go crazy over it and SAY that it was unexpected of him to give it because it's him.


My next problem is with the 3 words, "I Love You".

First of all, those 3 words are not something that one should say easily. They mean something deep so some people have a certain way or moment when they say it. For example, IF the guy wants to say it when he has the right emotions at the time to convey the message those 3 words mean, then so be it. It doesn't freaking mean that he loves you only at certain times.


And finally, be understanding. If he has projects and events that cause him to be very busy, don't pester him to go out with you. Also, don't whine about how other boyfriends are to their girlfriends and how he's not, about how he has no time for anything at all. Stop whining and lamenting how boring he has become or how ignorant he is now because really, you're adding on to the stress he has for the things he has to do.

AND, it isn't right whatsoever to go out with another guy behind his back. 1 ON 1 is very wrong no matter how you look at it. Giving a reason because your guy is too busy, isn't a reason. IT'S A FREAKING EXCUSE!

At least tell the guy each time. It doesn't matter if he's a friend. This isn't controlling, it's common courtesy.


YOU GOT THAT?